im "threatened" to quit the band ! still got who? that jeff la. He kept insisting that i quit band quit band quit band because he said that band is of NO USE if im studying music after A lvls. how true? i dont know.

im not coping well with my studies also. if i stay in band, i would have no time to practice piano and study. however, i really wish to at least participate in the SYF so that my testimonial wouldn't be so empty but i think i'll have no choice but to quit ba, since he's so insistant that i quit. He even brought me to sch and ask me to find n talk to the band teacher.sigh. i understand that because he is the one sponsoring all my lesson fees thats y he's so insistant but i feel that i cant make my own decision.

oh my gosh. jeff told me just now that his mum got lung cancer.

i really think that i cant make it for A lvls. Firstly, my GP is so lousy,i always fail so badly and although i know i need to read widely but i just cant. this fri is GP paper already.

the WORSE subject is my chinese lit !!! im not gd enough to take chi lit.ARGH. I don understand a thing in class. i don understand <<茶馆>>. i just don understand !!! i totally dunno anything abt 茶馆. I feel that theres to no1 to ask even if i dunno cuz if i tell my teacher i dunno anything,do u think she'll teach me everything from d start? n im not close to my chi class either. Its like 20 marks per question and i totally dunno how to shit out so many things.Even for d ones i understand,the best i got was just a pass,but overall i still fail.i've NEVER EVER PASS CHINESE LIT SINCE LAST YEAR, so how am i going to continue like this?

Somemore today just got back my maths complex numbers test. I ONLY got 1/15. SO PATHETIC. i don understand complex numbers loci la. i've been asking for help but no1 seems to help me...